Landyn & Mommy's Story



Things went the way we all never expected. Something that was never thought of. On January 10th at 2:30 a.m. I woke up thinking my water had broken, here I was hemorrhaging. My mom took me to the emergency room where i was immediatly hospitalized..and monitered. By ultra sound my placenta was aged. My doctor didnt to seem that it was nothing to be concerned about. At 8:30a.m. I was sent in for a emergency c-section. I remembering them saying they were delivering baby, but I heard nothing. As a mother, I panic. "why isnt my son crying," "what is going on." After being stitched up and taken to my room. I was given news that i never expected. Landyn, was born with a premature bottom jaw, deformities of the left arm, and not able to open his right hand. The first time I was able to see Landyn was in the incubator getting ready to be takin to another hospital for better care. It had taken them 4hrs to get a tube down his throat to get him stable with his breathing, with the help of a ventolator. Later on that evening I received a call that he was being takin to another hospital which was 2hrs away for even better care. A long 7 days later, I finally got to meet my son Landyn. Best day of my life. My whole life changed so fast. Being a young (22) single mother and it being my first child. I had no idea something like this could ever happen to me. At 1 week old Landyn had surgery and had a Trache put in, yet still on the vent. I thought things would get better. Landyn was not going down on his vent. settings, So they did more tests. I remember the day sitting in the hospital family room, with 2 doctors and a nurse telling me what was wrong with my Landyn, It constantly plays in my head. Landyn was missing 1 brain stem (number7) and they thought number 8 as well. Number 7 consists of facial movement, blinking the eyes, eating, sucking, swallowing, and most of all breathing. I was told there was nothing more they could do for him. So i was given the choice of letting him live like this forever and living in a nursing home or taking him off the vent. and letting him go. (Landyn did not breathe on his own really, he did very shallow breathes). I gave it time, i had them put a G- tube in his stomach. We shared very great times. I waited to see if things would improve, it was hard but they didnt.Soon Landyn starting having bad seizers and would stop breathing even with the vent. and they would air bag him. I couldnt see my baby live like this forever. So i made the hardest decision ever. To take him off the vent. before i did so i had been offered final wishes. i was able to take him outside for a stroller ride, put him in a bouncy seat, have him baptised, lay on the floor together, give him a bath in the tub, and have professional pictures done. Landyn was a gift from the Lord. And as his mommy, i will Never forget those 3 months we spent together. Special thanks go to my family and friends and the Childrens Memorial Hospital of Chicago IL.